found 2 reports on CR readings at other venues, here and here. different, useful views. the 2nd one, by Julia (dunno her), is interesting because she actually gets what's going on, yet feels confused and resistant natheless. I mean, she acknowledges certain pleasures but allows her dismay of confusion (cue Negative Capability) to taint the experience. I often have that same dismay, but have learned to say it's okay. anyway, you're not supposed to like everything, but you can accept the potential validity of different means.