Blogger's postophagic tendencies aren't new, but I'm still getting around the idea that just about everything I wrote in the last 5 years could be gone. totally gone, man. computer prob and back up screw up. I really feel hell just write more, but then I remember a few good things. and then I think, it's the writing not the written that really matters. if nothing else, if the loss is so, this will help me become self-ultimate. no point sweating it beyond what I can control.