might as well quote Stephanie Young all the way: The thing about hardly posting here is now I'm self conscious about posting the above paragraph b.c. it sounds kind of crazy I mean erratic to me. I think I'm a writer who has to contextualize one erratic thing inside another erratic thing etc. Which then generates more writing, really it's a crass way to get things done, that is, push them down the page until I can't see them anymore. I love the last 2 sentence, and the final phrase especially. works for me.